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I need to get the fuck over myself and apply for art school.

That's going to be my only new year's resolution.

I need some more social contacts as this is getting ridiculous

Bahhhhhhhh

***I'm in stage one of having lilac coloured hair.. I can't believe how hard it is to get rid of the turquoise colour! I've bleached my hair twice and now my hair is this light greenish/algae colour. Now I've got to wait a couple of days before I can bleach it again.. Patience. Argh. But I want it turn out purrrr-fect.

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I NEED TO MAKE A HAT LIKE THAT

 

Stupid winter depression being stupid.

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This picture left me breathless for a moment.. Love this man so much.

Christmas Curls

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My hair has been up in curlers all night. I can be a real girly girl sometimes and spend an entire evening with painting my nails, curling my hair and experimenting with make-up (maybe even some secret dancing on the bed stuff! Ugh, no.) Anyway, the night of bad sleep due to sticky curlers poking me everywhere turned out the be worth it because I love how my curls turned out! I doubt they'll last though, because even though I naturally already have curly hair they haven't lookes this defined, shiny and bouncy for a looooong time. Blame my hair dying obsession. Wanted to give it a try again though, and it being Christmas eve tonight was a good excuse to do so. I got inspired by Marilyn Monroe and these pretty Pin Up Girl dresses

There are so many more beautiful dresses on there! I'm dreaming of making a red one myself some time soon once I've gotten the hang of sewing.. My dress today is pastel green and pastel purple. So Christmassy. Not.

Just finished my presents and they turned out awesome. I don't think I've ever put this much effort into Christmas, let alone have been this nice to anyone. And I baked/decorated about 150 cookies yesterday. Beat that. Today I'm going to spend christmas eve with some family who live 3 hours from here, which is great 'cause they actually have SNOW there :D I don't know why I'm typing so much. Geez.

MERRY CHRISTMAS xxxx

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These weird white spiky sparkly ornaments in our tree somewhat remind me of a snowy version of  soot sprites...

Whisper of the Heart

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Today I watched 'Whisper of the Heart', another Ghibli movie. It was truly wonderful and definitely one of my favourite Ghibli movies, if not an overall fav. The story behind it was something I really felt I could relate to. The stubborn girl who reads books all day, loves to write and wishes life in the real world could be like the stories in the books she cherishes.Who thinks her future is in writing, but constantly thinks whatever she creates sucks and is cheesy and unoriginal, let alone worthy for anyone to read. But also the characters were very recognizable, the relationships, situations, emotions. And cats played an important role in it too! That's always a good thing. I also loved the music and the role of the violin in it.

It was just crazy how everything seemes completely in tune with what I'm going through right now. What should I do with my future? I constantly want to push myself these days to work on my art and writing, even if it's just to proof myself to people. To show them that I'm not just lazing around but am actually working on something while locked inside my room most of the time. Like Shizuku I'm often scared to show my work to others though. You don't even want to know how many sketches, drafts, canvasses etc. I have lying around that I've never shown to anyone before.

Enough deep emotional chit chat. Just go and check that movie out!

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All this time I was hoping this was going to work out,

but apparently you've got other plans.

I am so sick of this.

The World of Noodoll

***I just continually kept squeeling for 30 minutes straight c: Just opened up the 'World of Noodoll' pack I bought, and it was still a big mystery to me as to what was inside. IT'S SO AWESOME.
There was a (comic) book inside calles Ricehead Cooks Up a Plan. At first I was like 'ok.. this is neat, shame it's mostly in Chinese though', but then I discovered these sheets in it that you can put over the comic so you get the english text and some extra colours/doodles! So that made it even more awesome.

You can view the official page and more pictures of it here. Please do! The website it really cool too and has lots of amazing (Christmas) goodies. They also have a blog. I love how it's different from all the other 'cute and kawaii' stuff, with their own take on characters like Cartman, Darth Vader, Popeye, Cruella De Vil, Wonder Woman or these cuties:

I can't contain my excitement about this! n.n

zzZzZZz

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First I had this dream that I was living in this house (the same wooden house that always pops up in my dreams with the narrow spiral staircase, don't ask) with my entire family. Then out of nowhere John Krasinski suddenly came around and he said he got lost so he wanted to stay with us for a couple of days. Hell yeah. He kind of fancied my sister (I don't blame him!) but we got really good friends and that was actually even more awesome.

Then I had another dream which I've had a couple of times before. It takes place in this houde castle/mansion and it's all dark and I've got to make my escape with a couple of other people, like a quest thingy. We keep wanting to go up the staircase but there's this huge black guy who doesn't let us through and just keeps talking about his past life in Brooklyn (Say what!?). Then we decide to take the stairs all the way down and it gets really dark and scary. The rest I either don't remember or I simply woke up.

Why do spiral staircases keep popping up in my dreams?

To see spiral or winding stairs, signify growth and/or rebirth. A spiral staircase symbolizes a vicious circle. It is often accompanied by feelings of anxiety and fear and indicates that we are spending our energy on something that does not deserve our effort.

To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicate that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to material and thoughts that are coming to the surface. To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. It also refers to the setbacks that you are experiencing in your life.

Somehow I do like talking about my dreams but I hate it when other people do, and I can imagine you hating me for telling you this. Colour me not interested.

***She's so precious.

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I need some.

***My day in Amsterdam.

Awesome lady having awesome shaped ticket cutting machine.

First stop: Starbucks. We only have about.. 4? of them in the entire country so it's a real treat to go there for me! I got a Gingerbread Latté and it was incredibly delicious. Especially the cookie crumbs on top of the whip cream nom nom nom.
Then we got to one of these department stores which is kind of like the english Harrods or the american Macys. They had amazing christmas trees everywhere and lots of awesome christmas presents. I mainly went there to use the bathroom though and inside was this kind of creepy doll...

 I know right? What is that even doing there?

 Then it was on to the new H&M flagship store! It was huge. I got this awesome jumper along with 2 other cozy vests..

After lunch we went to a couple of more shops and eventually we went to Waterstones where I got this precious book. It was even signed by the lady herself!

After that we went to the American Book Center which is still my favourite bookstore EVER. They have so many amazing books and I really had to contain myself and it was really hard not to leave the shop with a gigantic pile of books. It's almost my birthday though, so I wrote down a couple of titles just in case.. Had to buy this book though, especially because of the title but also because I loved his other books as well (Brief Interviews With Hideous Men)

And this super cute Japanese paper craft thing, I don't know what's all in the package yet as my dad and I are saving it for a rainy day, but basically you can build a paper 'dollhouse' with it along with some cute characters!

We also went to the ABC gallery called The Treehouse where they had an exhibition going on called A Handmade Holiday which had just opened that day. So many amazing things.. I loved this painting by Gabrielle Gordeau

And the many adorable plushies and other crafts they had!

Now I guess I've had my much needed dosis of inspiration for the upcoming weeks. I'm all motivated to work on my paintings again and maybe ever start putting together my portfolio. Still need to make some Christmas presents and come up with a dessert for our Christmas dinner, so I'm off!

xoxo

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Ohmy. I absolutely love this tattoo!

Today I was sitting in the train thinking about tattoo ideas and then I thought about getting 'See you space cowboy...' tattooed somewhere. I've always loved that line too though (but it's in a Beatles song too so that might cause confusion). I've had a really amazing and exciting day today but I'm gonna make a post about it all later on!

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Have a good night.

Neat-o Crafting

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To make myself look even more like an old cat lady I have started knitting again. I don't think knitting should sound dull and boring at all though. I think it's basically the cheesy books and dull yarn colours that have given this awesome craft a bad name. Especially the dull colours are a pain in the ass for me, as I absolutely love bright and sparkly colours. Everything can be found on the internet nowadays though so I went for a colourful-and sparlky-yarn' hunt. SUCCES at the website of Ice Yarns. I want all of these...

Problem is that you have to order most of them in batches of 6 or 8. I only want 2 of each! I might still order some though as they are incredibly pretty.

Other exciting news: yesterday I got a sewing lesson from my mum! It went really great (even though her sewing machine is ancient) and I made an awesome skirt. I've been wanting to try it for years and yesterday we finally decided it was time. I'm so excited about it! Now I'm way more confident to use it more often and make all kinds of awesome stuff. I'll try to upload a picture of the skirt sometime soon...

Because I'm spending so much time crafting now, I found out why still so many people think of it as something dull and only old and boring ladies do. So many of the guides/pictures/patterns etc. all look so dull to me. If it wasn't for my mum who learned me different stitches and knitting and such I probably never would've gotten into it. I feel like it is my duty to make crafting neat again. Maybe I want to start on a guide, with illustrations and such, or pictures of 'badass' people who also enjoy crafting. I have so many ideas going on that it's hard keeping track of them! But I am positive and very motivated to actually do something with it.

Also, when thinking about my future, an idea I had put far away in a corner of my mind suddenly popped up again. For years people have been telling me that the thing they could see me doing was becoming a tattoo artist (while I don't even have a tattoo!). I always smile broadly and get really excited when someone says that to me. I know it's hard to get into that world. Ideally you get to work in a tattoo studio and gradually learn more about techniques and the whole world around tattooing, but it aint easy to 'just do that'.  But think about it, wouldn't something like that be incredibly awesome? There are schools now, with 2 or 4 or 6 week courses to learn everything you need to know. The more I think about it, the more excited I get. Someone even already offered to be my human canvas when I decide to give it a shot lol.


Wow. Big-ass post. 

***Ah the nostalgia...

I suddenly got From First To Last songs stuck in my head, and even though it might sound really weird.. listening to it again brings back so many good memories! They've moved on though, and so have I. It's funny to read all the comments on the videos now. They're mostly from people who, like me, used to listen to it a couple of years ago when everyone tried really hard to look emo and be 'hardcore'. Maybe it's because I'm not into the whole 'scene' anymore, but I feel like it has kind of died out. That's not a bad thing though. But they were still good times. I don't regret a single thing nor am ashamed of that 'phase' of mine.

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"I’m at the point in my life where I’m so tired, depressed, and lonely that I just don’t care anymore. I’m so tired I can’t even kill myself. I’m too afraid. I will just sit here until I die of a heart attack or radiation from my computer screen." — J. Stile

***I always love it when the Dutch subtitles aren't working on MTV c: No. Seriously. Makes me feel like I'm not in this lame country for a moment.  Going to Amsterdam tomorrow. YES.

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'A bouquet of bacon. Guaranteed to win over any girl’s heart. Or mine. Haha.'
(source)

Anyone give me this and I'll marry you. No kidding.

***So what have I been up to the past few days? Well, yesterday was my mom's birthday. It was really fun as my brothers (who live quite far away) came all the way here to surprise her ^^ BUT, I also made a delicious cake which deff. added some more sweetness!! I'm too lazy to translate the whole recipe, but basically it was a chocolate-chip cookie crumble monchou cake topped with a layer of strawberries. I completely forgot to take a picture though, but the deliciousness is carved into my senses (eek that sounds so scary and wrong)

I've also been working on some 'kawaii' salty dough cookie christmas decorations!

Here's a little sneak peak..

And I was pleasantly surprised when finding my giveaway prize from super cute kawaii / the Heyday Shop in the mail c: SO CUTE



And finally: I have discovered the magic of Adobe Illustrator! I seriously can't put away my tablet anymore and been drawing like crazy. It's only a 30 day trial but I'm seriously considering buying it. It also inspired me to start working on little booklets and such as I used to. I'm still trying to figure everything out though.. This was my first attempt at something decent looking..

I thought this 'winter depression' thing wouldn't be able to get me this year, but it surely did. I'm glad there are still these kind of things that cheer me up a bit.

Off cleaning my room and baking waffles now. buhbyez.

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I always end up loving every song I hear that mentions Baltimore.

Well her heart was filled with gladness when she saw those city lights
She said, "The prettiest place on earth was Baltimore at night"

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'My god, I’ve been playing Zombie Soccer for two hours?'

My Christmas Spirit...

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Wonderland

***Today it was snowing like crazy so my mum and I decided to go for a walk in the woods!

We came across some insane mushrooms! At first we thought they were fake, but they were very real and very big..

And we stumbled upon some silly trees :)

...and this crazy Santa!

 

Sorry 'bout the cheery frames teehee.

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***  'Once, there was a tiger striped cat. This cat, died a million deaths, revived and lived a million lives. And he had various owners that he didn't really care about,. The cat wasn't afraid to die. Then one day, he met a white female cat, the two of them fell in love and lived together happily. Well, the year's went by and the white female cat got old and passed away. The Tiger Striped cat cried a million times, then he also died. But this time.....he didn't come back.'  

Hey Christmas!

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Started this morning off by watching Arnold's Christmas. Is it weird it made me cry?

I felt like sharing a Christmas story just for the sake of it, but I can't come up with any good stories so I'm just going to share some random stuff about my Christmas days..

• We still have our Christmas tree from last Christmas in our 'backyard'. It's all dead and brown but my dad is still planning to put lights in it and decorate it with food for the birds.
• Our tree from 3 years ago did actually last two Christmases!
• Two years ago I spend Christmas in London with my dad, sister and her husband. It was really weird when we walked around town and there basically no one on the streets.. (including public transportation!)
• We still use most of the tree decorations we used to have ever since I can remember, most of it made by me and my brothers and sisters.
• That's at my mom's though, as my dad is always too lazy to take everything out and just puts the tree outside once the needles start falling out really bad, decorations and all. We always end up buying red decorations every single year though. But I like red.
• I never believed in Santa Claus. I only believed in the one us Dutch people came up with.
• The movie I always used to watch around Christmas time was A Muppet's Christmas Carol, and this other cartoon movie I can't remember the name of. These days I don't really have a favourite one, but I can't go without watching Love Actually at least once!