Hello sweeties,
how are you doing today? I am asking that in the most sincere way. Really,
how are you feeling? I feel like right now there's a big divide between people feeling either
extremely positive and motivated and the ones still hanging in that
'post Christmas omg what am I going to do with this new year filled with potential?' mood. I also think that one week into the new year is the moment
resolutions are already
given up on and we get down on ourselves for that. It sucks, I know.
I just came across an
interview with Haylew Williams from Paramore which I found very
honest and
inspiring. Especially this quote of her's about the moment Paramore started 'falling apart' really stood out for me:
'...there were definitely days I would wake up and think it would be so easy to put up some sort of letter saying it's just too hard, we've had a good run, and go, like, get a job serving coffee or doing something normal. Maybe that would be less stressful.
And then there were days that you would wake up and you would have a song in your head and know that there is purpose and there's freedom in being a musician and an artist, and you're really thankful. Just like in everybody's life, there are ups and downs and there were doubtful moments, but there was something in the back of our minds that never let us give up.'
Numerous times, I too think of
quitting. To just get a 'normal' job and just occasionly do a bit of art. It would be so much
easier. No more
deadlines, feeling like a sucky artist, others constantly
criticizing you or having to 'compete' with a
gazillion other artists. But yes, then there's that moment I create something I'm very proud of, or experience that wonderful calming effect working on art has on me and I feel
very thankful and blessed and I know that deep down inside I shouldn't go easy on myself, and that
I don't want to give up.
It all comes down to that
little voice in the back of you mind telling you to
push through. I know sometimes there's more than one voice, like the one telling you
you're not good enough. But in the end they all want what's best for you. I feel like I cancelled out a lot of those other voices already, but that doesn't mean they don't come back every once in a while.
Keep going strong. Think of the
brighter,
warmer,
blossoming days ahead and be grateful for all the
little things. I really recommend making a little list on a daily list with all the things you're grateful for that day, no matter how small. Like today my list is:
♥ baking delicious muffins just for me
♥ incense
♥ The Princess Diaries
♥ painting my nails
You matter, you are special and there are people who care about you. I believe love is most important in life, and everything else is inferior to it. Everything will turn out okay eventually. And then it will fall apart again. Once you accept that, life might just be a little bit lighter. :)
